yes ok maybe no idk ??? !!!

holy shit this is so accurate it's ridiculous

this is literally my life right now

they put the thing into words

#onrepeat

"Why did you cut your hair?"- ask.fm (x6)

Initially I did it for Locks Of Love, but after some help from an enlightening anon on my tumblr and some of my own research, i've decided instead on Wigs For Kids. It's basically a non- profit organization that provides hair replacement solutions for children affected by chemotherapy, alopecia, burns and other medical conditions. WFK actually supplies the wigs for free as opposed to LoL, which can charge up to thousands.

I've actually been wanting to do it since I found about it in secondary school, but my hair was never long enough. As for why, a few years ago my mom got really sick and her thyroid got really bad. As a result her hair went from being long and thick to extremely thin and very very sparse. I know she's really insecure about it and it makes me so upset because there's nothing I can do to help. She always comments about how she's so happy that my hair is extremely thick and healthy & she's really strict about me not putting any styling chemicals in my hair because she doesn't want me to go through the same things she has to. She always has to be extremely careful about what she put in her hair and on more than one occasion i've heard hair stylists comment obnoxiously about how they can't really style such little hair, and I really never ever want to see that look on her face again. 

Honestly, to some it might seem silly to be so concerned with such a superficial part of your appearance, but for a girl, that long mermaid hair has always been a way to feel good about yourself, and I cannot imagine a little girl having to wonder why she can't have the long locks all her friends have. 

In May of this year my hair finally reached the 12 inch minimum, but by then I really wanted my long hair for the role of Bianca in lit night, so I did it on the following weekend.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't affected by the comments, because that long hair really was my favourite thing about my appearance. Most people agree that it doesn't suit me as well as the long hair, but friends do say it's cute [DORA THE EXPLORER APPARENTLY] - although, I guess they can't exactly say otherwise. Still, I don't regret it one bit, because I know that there's a good chance it'll make a child somewhere very happy :) 

pre-cut shot by mum

IT HAPPENED SO FAST 

new term, new being

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17) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

generally, yes.

I should exercise more,
procrastinate a little less*
be a bit nicer
less sarcastic
more selfless
less vain

but generally, yes

*I have to finish a month's worth of homework in the next 7 days.
**why do I never learn
***it's like I enjoy fucking with my future self

heels are the devil's weapon

last wednesday was really fun/ a good last night out
pre's at snehal's with a lovely multitude of drinking games and drunk people
we started with the margarita mix waaay too early
and ended up taking involuntary cat naps on the floor/couch/table
got stamped at Avalon, and then those with IDs went over to Pangaea
personally I thought Avalon was better that night
(ok there may have been a certain guy there huehuehue)
ended the night taking care of a couple people throwing up
and then a sleepover at anika's with the casa crew :3
talked about our night's hookups/freakouts and went to sleep with our feet numb from pain

"Heels suck, but if I wear flats, i'm at boob-height with every girl on the dance floor and I really don't need to see that man, i've got my own."

How have you been feeling lately? (from ask.fm)

in one word, blessed.
it's 12.34 am and i'm feeling oddly appreciative of my life.

(this is incessant rambling that I just felt the need to pen down)

I've got the most amazing family I could honestly never ask for more. My parents are so incredibly supportive of everything I want to do- literally, which other asian parents would encourage their daughter to pursue drama and design in college even if the arts 'have no stable future'. They're so incredible about grades as well! I mean, whenever I do badly for exams or if i'm extremely stressed out (like in may/june when i had two consecutive SATs and MYEs) and i felt like I was screwing up my life, my dad just looked at me with an amused expression and asked why I was so stressed because they believed in me and even if I perform poorly, they just ask that I do my best and ask for help whenever I need :') He told me that I should never ever stress myself out about exams and then proceeded to take me out for yummy food :) Then i've got this awesome brother. Let me tell you about my brother okay, he is AMAZING. like legit the nicest guy you'll meet. He knows probably the entire 20-21ish population of Singapore I swear he so popular i'm known only as 'dhruv's sister' in most circles- which I am totally fine with because it is an awesome association :) Not to mention that he is a beast when he goes out. Literally such a baller when it comes to clubbing he's done it all. twice. He's really protective of me when I go out now though lol, he'll randomly show up to avalon when i'm there :') Plus he totally covers for me with my parents :P Not only that, but I was privileged with parents that worked so hard to provide for their family. My dad came from quite a poor background whereas my mom was an heiress and my dad refused my mom's family money and worked so hard to get to where he is as the top boss of an international company. He brought us from India to a huge penthouse in Singapore and is just the biggest inspiration of my life <3 He never hesitates to spoil us kids and I just hope I never forget to be appreciative of it :3 But at the same time he's the most generous person I know- always donating thousands of dollars to charities and orphanages in India (When I got my first allowance he gave me raises if i promised to donate a portion of it to any charity I wanted - I always chose the spca)

awk family photo yay

Then my friends omfg don't get me started i'll never stop. So i've pretty much got the most amazing best friends anyone could ask for. The ones who can make me laugh my ass off when I was crying a second ago. Like anika and I pretty much know everything about each other, she's in a different country and she'll still be the first person I talk to when something big happens! And then there's Gitu and Snehal, both whom i've know for more than 11 years! :O We don't see each other as much as i'd like and we can legit go 3 months without seeing each other but when we do, it's the most amazing time of my life. Then there's Nat and Emily and Deb who're my TKGS girls <3 we've been through so much together and we've just come out stronger and I love them so so much I can't even express it. Then the baes with Nat, Padma, Belle, Smrits- we came together in the most unconventional of circumstances but now I don't know how I would survive without them :') Then Sanjay, the soul- sister <3 literally knows almost everything about me and still hangs out with me??? we have the same retarded sense of humour and it's brilliant basically our whatsapp conversations are quite legendary :D The class girls! Charan, SiNi, Sandra <3 <3 I have no idea how I would have survived J2 without these girls seriously we are so awesome when we get together our conversations are just EPIC <3. And there's so so many other people in my life I couldn't live without it's too hard to list! Joce, Sean and rest of the class, Natalya, Sandy, Nooranah, all my drama people, all my oslp friends, Theians, etc you get the point.

Literally so thankful for being blessed with such amazing friends and family :') I feel like i'm in such a lovely place right now and I know i've got this tough trek to A-levels, but I know I can prevail with the support of all these people right here :')