How have you been feeling lately? (from ask.fm)

in one word, blessed.
it's 12.34 am and i'm feeling oddly appreciative of my life.

(this is incessant rambling that I just felt the need to pen down)

I've got the most amazing family I could honestly never ask for more. My parents are so incredibly supportive of everything I want to do- literally, which other asian parents would encourage their daughter to pursue drama and design in college even if the arts 'have no stable future'. They're so incredible about grades as well! I mean, whenever I do badly for exams or if i'm extremely stressed out (like in may/june when i had two consecutive SATs and MYEs) and i felt like I was screwing up my life, my dad just looked at me with an amused expression and asked why I was so stressed because they believed in me and even if I perform poorly, they just ask that I do my best and ask for help whenever I need :') He told me that I should never ever stress myself out about exams and then proceeded to take me out for yummy food :) Then i've got this awesome brother. Let me tell you about my brother okay, he is AMAZING. like legit the nicest guy you'll meet. He knows probably the entire 20-21ish population of Singapore I swear he so popular i'm known only as 'dhruv's sister' in most circles- which I am totally fine with because it is an awesome association :) Not to mention that he is a beast when he goes out. Literally such a baller when it comes to clubbing he's done it all. twice. He's really protective of me when I go out now though lol, he'll randomly show up to avalon when i'm there :') Plus he totally covers for me with my parents :P Not only that, but I was privileged with parents that worked so hard to provide for their family. My dad came from quite a poor background whereas my mom was an heiress and my dad refused my mom's family money and worked so hard to get to where he is as the top boss of an international company. He brought us from India to a huge penthouse in Singapore and is just the biggest inspiration of my life <3 He never hesitates to spoil us kids and I just hope I never forget to be appreciative of it :3 But at the same time he's the most generous person I know- always donating thousands of dollars to charities and orphanages in India (When I got my first allowance he gave me raises if i promised to donate a portion of it to any charity I wanted - I always chose the spca)

awk family photo yay

Then my friends omfg don't get me started i'll never stop. So i've pretty much got the most amazing best friends anyone could ask for. The ones who can make me laugh my ass off when I was crying a second ago. Like anika and I pretty much know everything about each other, she's in a different country and she'll still be the first person I talk to when something big happens! And then there's Gitu and Snehal, both whom i've know for more than 11 years! :O We don't see each other as much as i'd like and we can legit go 3 months without seeing each other but when we do, it's the most amazing time of my life. Then there's Nat and Emily and Deb who're my TKGS girls <3 we've been through so much together and we've just come out stronger and I love them so so much I can't even express it. Then the baes with Nat, Padma, Belle, Smrits- we came together in the most unconventional of circumstances but now I don't know how I would survive without them :') Then Sanjay, the soul- sister <3 literally knows almost everything about me and still hangs out with me??? we have the same retarded sense of humour and it's brilliant basically our whatsapp conversations are quite legendary :D The class girls! Charan, SiNi, Sandra <3 <3 I have no idea how I would have survived J2 without these girls seriously we are so awesome when we get together our conversations are just EPIC <3. And there's so so many other people in my life I couldn't live without it's too hard to list! Joce, Sean and rest of the class, Natalya, Sandy, Nooranah, all my drama people, all my oslp friends, Theians, etc you get the point.

Literally so thankful for being blessed with such amazing friends and family :') I feel like i'm in such a lovely place right now and I know i've got this tough trek to A-levels, but I know I can prevail with the support of all these people right here :')