June

so much to do.
let's do it.

best possible outcome

1. run 5km 5 days a week
2. lose at least 6 kilos
3. replace lost IC without parents finding out (which means $100 comes out of my own pocket)
4. do the visa pre-arrival stuff
5. ace the visa nterview
6. take boss ass passport photos for USC Card
7. do well on the math placement test
8. buy the bio-essence tanaka whitening
9. STOP BREAKING OUT
10. yoga every morning

the service industry struggle is real

aka: it's far too late to write a profoundly eloquent post about my work experience as i've pretty much forgotten most of it so here are my tweets from march instead:

it wasn't bad, and it certainly wasn't great but goddamn i really learnt a lot. The 'value of money' for instance (but don't tell any parents, don't give them the satisfaction). I was fully prepared to spend everything I earned on the darling givenchy bag i've been coveting- (dad was going to match my 2k- his way of persuading me to quit), but now i'm thinking that it really isn't quite worth 2 months of busting my ass. (i'd rather buy 100 kate spades once i get to the US)

2nd annual baes @ Nat's

i really do love these girls
so much
between getting super drunk
and super happy
i'm the best version of myself with these guys <3

why teen wolf is the best

"Sweetheart, let me tell you something no teenager ever believes, but I guarantee you is the absolute truth. You fall in love more than once. It will happen again. It will be just as amazing and extraordinary as the first time and maybe just as painful. But it'll happen again. I promise. But until then, be your own anchor. " 

1.1.14

maybe this year i'll be good enough for someone
maybe he'll help me be good enough for myself
or maybe he'll take whatever i left

maybe I should just be with myself this year

fuck

i'm so fucking pathetic
so so fucking sad
and angry
and i tried. I really tried
but crying for two hours on the first day of 2014
it can't be that bad can it
i can't help myself
and i can't ask anyone either
I haven't cried in months
so why today
why now
why me